When It Rains

I was starting to wonder whether I was going to hear back from these staffing agencies or not, (I've been interviewing at a few), and today I got a slew of phonecalls asking to send me resume here and there. I've been applying for jobs all afternoon. I am, as it were, sick of being home all the time. I went through a particularly rough phase where I started to look the Bailey's square in the face at 10:00 in the morning saying, "i WILL not put you in my coffee. i WILL not put you in my coffee. BAD Lindsay, BAD!" I'm home far too often when part of my brain thinks that alcohol all day is a good idea.

And i can say this with no guilt or doubt: I want a fucking job, already! That being said, I want to find the right job, rather than taking the first thing that lands on my lap. If that is the one that looks good for me, i'll take it. Otherwise, i'm trying to remain level-headed about it so i don't start drooling over the fact that it's a job at all... and looking at it with a more critical eye so i really find something i can be happy with for a while. Who knows how long that "while" will turn out to be, but i'm trying to be realistic about myself here, and go with what i know about myself:

• Security = good, but too corporate = bad.
• Flexibility = good, but hating the company's mission = bad.
• Loving the company's mission = good, but being too stressed out to remember what my hobbies are = bad. (*not to say that all nonprofits are disorganized chaotic and stressful workplaces. Just that most are.)
• Nice work environment and good view = good, long commute to get there = bad.
  

All that being said, wish me luck in finding the right thing for now. Again. :)