The Moment

from email to Judy: "it's not that they're being harder on us that i haven't written as much, it's that i'm more comfortable here now that i don't feel the need to get out my computer as much. it's partially that and that before, there was so much to write, so many tenable things that i could describe, like the food, the new people, the surroundings, the pedagogy, and now, the new things that i am experiencing are so much harder to put into words. this morning we had the president of the kripalu center talking to us about yoga philosphy, and there was so much wonderful new information to take in, and such an incredible chanting at the end... i don't even know how to describe it. and yoga this morning was vigorous and wonderful, and breakfast was wonderful. i don't even know what to say. i'm so lucky to be here.

spring is such a gift. things are waking up and i can feel it."

it's funny how familiarity with surroundings makes me feel more at home here, makes me feel connected here, makes me feel less like i have to connect to home elsewhere because my home is in me, too. don't let me get too esoteric here, because i did just get out of a really fascinating experience with Dinabandu about the philosophy of yoga. one of the most interesting things, i thought, is that yoga is about experiencing life's learnings and changes on all levels -- physical, mental, psychological, and emotionally, otherwise, we won't fully integrate them. that's why romantic love is so invigorating. he talked about the science of yoga, and quantum physics, and how the chakras are actually located physically around glands in the endocrine system, and the chemistry of spiritual and emotional experiences... whew! so much to internalize. so i sit here and write. i think that's part of my integration process, though.

tomorrow is our day of silence (what's the sanskrit word for that, again?) and i'm really looking forward to the challenge and the gift. how often in the "real world" would i be able to get away with not saying anything. it would be considered totally rude. the big challenge will be not calling home to daN and not hearing him say "i love you" before we go to sleep, not saying "i love you" to him. but i know he loves me, and for a day, i'll let myself have the experience of just knowing. it makes me want to cry, and maybe i will, and there it is.

but it's a BEAUTIFUL day out, and i have a walking date with one of my yoga tribe members, so off i go to enjoy the next moments of sunshine, comradery, fresh air, and a different kind of health and expression: the earth on this second day of spring. yesterday i went to a wonderful vinyasa class during lunch, which was perfect for yesterday. fresh air is perfect for today.